and i think about talking to you but what would i even say now?
didn’t i already try and fail at that.
when do i stop wasting my own time.
when do people stop lying.
when do i know.
bed;shorts;sports bra; bun
it’s so, empty.
everything feels so empty.
and i dont know how to change that. because me, i’m not empty. i’ve overflowing.
not that a single person sees that.
does that mean i’m not showing it?
i just feel like breaking down every ten minutes. but that isnt a choice and no one wants to see that. no one understands.
they see i failed and think i should just let it go
that’s because they’ve gotten everything that wanted.
everything they worked for, worked out.
is that because they have lower expectations than me?
that i have a fire in my belly?
they are okay with good enough? and i’m not.
so therefor i will keep getting my heart broken and having my giant pipe dreams die?
i hope no..
but i think i might..